Artemis, Iphigenia recalls, is not a particularly forgiving goddess. But, as she walks to the altar at Aulis, head held high, a part of her wants to beg for her life, to beseech the goddess to spare her.
She doesn't utter a word.
It's useless, the princess reminds herself. Gods and goddesses love offerings, but may not always listen to prayers.
It's then that Iphigenia almost trips on a rock, one surprisingly hidden from the light of the full moon. The man walking her to the spot when she will die (one of her father's soldiers, someone with a forgettable sort of name and an even more forgettable face), looks at her, concerned, but says nothing.
It's bad luck to speak to the condemned, is what she knows he's thinking, and Iphigenia is, in fact, condemned as a sacrifice.
She rights herself with her usual grace and continues to walk. She spies Kalchas there, the priest. So he will hold the knife, she notes in her mind.
The princess wonders how much it will hurt, dying.
It is then, in this moment of dark reverie, she notices a man with a cloak covering his head and face. When she gets up close, ascending the last few steps quickly, she knows immediately, with a sinking in her stomach, who it is.
Her father. Agamemnon is either already mourning her or is ashamed of his own greed. Iphigenia figures it's probably the latter.
He will watch her die. The princess feels her throat tighten, and gulps.
She sees Achilles there now, and remembers his promise to save her at the altar if she should change her mind. She doesn't want to. She doesn't plan to. Iphigenia has decided that this is the most resolute she's ever been, and ironically, will ever be.
She wants something to believe in. She wants something to choose. There was never opportunity for that, at least back home in Mycenae.
Kalchas begins uttering the prayers and Iphigenia feels someone start to place a gag around her lips. Yes, of course. So she doesn't curse the living.
But all she wants to do right now is speak.
"No," she says, shaking her head, much to the confusion of the young man placing the cloth around hef. "I will not curse you. Tell father that the ships can sail."
And then, she lifts her head higher, so that it will be a clean cut to her throat. She closes her eyes.
It is then that Iphigenia says a silent prayer, in her mind, for her family, for baby Orestes and Electra and Chrysothemis, and her mother, and yes, even her father. She prays that they will stay healthy, that Orestes will grow up strong, and that--gods willing--her family will prosper.
She's trying very hard to be brave. She hopes she is, because she feels Kalchas grip her hands, feels the blade of the knife touch her delicate skin, and then--
Nothing. It's only the wind.
She doesn't utter a word.
It's useless, the princess reminds herself. Gods and goddesses love offerings, but may not always listen to prayers.
It's then that Iphigenia almost trips on a rock, one surprisingly hidden from the light of the full moon. The man walking her to the spot when she will die (one of her father's soldiers, someone with a forgettable sort of name and an even more forgettable face), looks at her, concerned, but says nothing.
It's bad luck to speak to the condemned, is what she knows he's thinking, and Iphigenia is, in fact, condemned as a sacrifice.
She rights herself with her usual grace and continues to walk. She spies Kalchas there, the priest. So he will hold the knife, she notes in her mind.
The princess wonders how much it will hurt, dying.
It is then, in this moment of dark reverie, she notices a man with a cloak covering his head and face. When she gets up close, ascending the last few steps quickly, she knows immediately, with a sinking in her stomach, who it is.
Her father. Agamemnon is either already mourning her or is ashamed of his own greed. Iphigenia figures it's probably the latter.
He will watch her die. The princess feels her throat tighten, and gulps.
She sees Achilles there now, and remembers his promise to save her at the altar if she should change her mind. She doesn't want to. She doesn't plan to. Iphigenia has decided that this is the most resolute she's ever been, and ironically, will ever be.
She wants something to believe in. She wants something to choose. There was never opportunity for that, at least back home in Mycenae.
Kalchas begins uttering the prayers and Iphigenia feels someone start to place a gag around her lips. Yes, of course. So she doesn't curse the living.
But all she wants to do right now is speak.
"No," she says, shaking her head, much to the confusion of the young man placing the cloth around hef. "I will not curse you. Tell father that the ships can sail."
And then, she lifts her head higher, so that it will be a clean cut to her throat. She closes her eyes.
It is then that Iphigenia says a silent prayer, in her mind, for her family, for baby Orestes and Electra and Chrysothemis, and her mother, and yes, even her father. She prays that they will stay healthy, that Orestes will grow up strong, and that--gods willing--her family will prosper.
She's trying very hard to be brave. She hopes she is, because she feels Kalchas grip her hands, feels the blade of the knife touch her delicate skin, and then--
Nothing. It's only the wind.
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